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«The Abyss of Love» – eine Geschichte von Ashley Scheidegger

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«The Abyss of Love» – eine Geschichte von Ashley Scheidegger

“I should have left you for Mike a long time ago.” “What do you mean by that?” Stammered June, the tears now falling. Was their whole relationship a lie? How could her best friend do something like that? “You get what I mean. I`ve been dating Mike behind your back, he`s the only one I love.” admitted Jason. June stormed out of her now ex-boyfriends apartment.

The chilly breeze of the night, that found its way over New York City, brushed Junes blond hair out of her face. High up on a rooftop in New York were the chaotic streets barely noticeable. June found herself more often up here, the stars so close, her parents always told her that if someone dies, they appear as a star in the sky. She had hope that they were up there as tiny stars and watched over her, although she knew it was something silly to imagine. “What are you thinking about?” the voice of her friend Alex brought her out of her thoughts. “The usual. I wish they were here with me.” answered June with a sad sight while Alex sat down. Silence, none of them spoke a word, both caught up in their own thoughts, on the edge of a roof somewhere in New York. “Do you see the stars over there? Together they make the constellation of Orion.” Broke June the silence while connecting the stars on the sky. “I don’t know, to me they kind of look like random shapes and figures.” Alex stated and both of them let out a small laugh,” When we die, we will come back as a star and in the future, we will make our own constellation. Or that’s at least what my parents told me.” Repeated June, what her parents once told her. Both were now lying on the cold stone of the house. “Still after all these years, you miss them so much, am I right?” June stayed silent, she never really got to say her goodbye to her parents. She turned her head in Alexs direction, just to find her already looking at June. Something in the moment made them lean closer to each other. The closer they got the more grew the tension between them. June got lost in her hazel brown eyes. Until Alex was the one to finally close the gap, placing her lips on the soft ones of Junes. For June it felt so right and yet so wrong. When her boyfriend Jason crossed her mind, she jumped up. “I can’t do this. I love Jason and this is ruining everything,” said June with the feeling of guilt and tears forming in her eyes. “Love is such a small word with a meaning so big we only think to understand. Truth is, we don’t, we are too young to understand. I can guarantee you that I like you, more than friends,” admitted Alex with hope that June would finally drop Jason for her, someone who actually loves her. “No, you don’t. You have no idea what love is,” with tears in her eyes June stormed of.

“You did what? How could you betray me like that?” Yelled Jason at June after he found out about the kiss. “I know and I’m truly sorry. I don’t know what got into me.” Answered June with tears about to fall. “I should have left you for Mike a long time ago.” “What do you mean by that?” Stammered June, the tears now falling. Was their whole relationship a lie? How could her best friend do something like that? “You get what I mean. I`ve been dating Mike behind your back, he`s the only one I love.” admitted Jason. June stormed out of her now ex-boyfriends apartment.

The Ending Version 1

Late at night June found herself up on the roof again. However, this time something was different, she wasn’t here to feel closer to her parents or watch the stars. No, for her this was the end, with the last people she trusted leaving her, she couldn’t find a purpose to live. June heard the door to the roof open and close, without turning around she knew it was Alex. “You were right, love is a small word with a meaning too big as for us to understand.” Said June with her eyes focused on the busy streets of New York. “June please don’t. I`m-” Alexs sentence was cut off by Junes lips on hers. “In the end love is only a word made out of four letters.” And with that her last words escaped her mouth as she took a step back and let herself fall into the abyss. Joining her parents in the night sky.

The Ending Version 2

June found herself on the roof at night again, staring at the breath-taking view of New York at night. After the harsh break up she realised that it wasn’t love what kept them together but rather the social pressure they were under. The whole school would stick their nose into their business and they would both get less popular, the school could go back like it was before when girls and boys were separated and basically had a war against each other. June heard the door to the roof open and close, without turning around she knew that it was Alex. “You were right, we are too young to understand love until we lose someone,” said June without turning her head away from the view. “June I’m sorry I shouldn’t have kissed you. I feel sorry for what happened between you and Jason,” responded Alex with guilt in her eyes. To be told that kiss meant a lot more to them than it should have. “Don’t apologize, it wasn’t your fault. To be fair I felt something as well.” As soon as June said that last sentence, Alex kissed her again. “Alex, I like you too, but we can’t be together. This will be our last goodbye for a long time.” With tears in Junes eyes, she left having no intentions on ever going back up to that roof.

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